It's been a while, I feel like I'm losing my friends... I haven't kept in touch with anyone like I used to. I fear that I may not have anyone to talk to anymore. The new friends I do have are too wild for me. I'll be starting school in the spring or is it the summer. I don't know anymore, I've been trying to get all my finances in order. I miss my old friends, we have grown so distant. Each having their own life that may not be in common with mine. I am sad and depressed about the whole thing. But I'm learning to deal with it. I guess when I go back to school I'll meet new friends. I've been so scared to go back, I guess it's because I was really never that good at it, but I don't want to be a server for the rest of my life. It's very good money, and I guess I'm comfortable with my income, but it's time for a carrier. I just celebrated my 23rd birthday and now more then ever I fear life. Not all is bad, Jay and I are doing very well. On the 19th we'll be celebrating five years, and he's been actually talking about marriage. I guess hanging out with my niece Nevaeh, made him want the whole family life thing. I just wish I had my friends to talk to. I miss them very much, and if any of you guys read this give me a buzz, 889-9325.